One Year From Now

            Do you ever sit around and wonder where your life will be in one year? I do… especially when I should be studying for finals or writing essays. Last week I indulged in a little daydreaming about studying abroad in London for a semester. How fun does that sound!? I’ve never even been on an airplane, but here I am spending hours looking at fancy overseas universities.

            So, I was wondering, what will I be doing one year from now? Could I be preparing to spend a semester abroad? And if so, then where? Argentina, Peru, England, Spain, or somewhere else? Could I actually have a boyfriend? This is even harder to imagine than studying in a foreign country. Or will I be doing exactly what I’m doing right now… blogging while I should be studying? Hmmm, if I were to place a bet on it I’d go with the last one. But you never know where your life will take you!

            Where do I hope I’ll be one year from now? I would like to be a million dollar lottery winner with a bestselling novel, a super hot/ sweet boyfriend, perfect hair and skin, and an ocean of opportunities. Just kidding! What a boring life that would be! But I do hope I have a little bit of excitement in the next year… and a boyfriend wouldn’t hurt either.

Book Review: All American Girl by Meg Cabot

All American Girl & Ready or Not by Meg Cabot

            I was excited to read a Meg Cabot book finally. I’ve seen lots of her books at the library, and I’m not sure why I never picked one up, but I thought it was time. Ready or Not (RoN) is the sequel to All American Girl (AAG).

            I enjoyed reading AAG, but it was a bit of a disappointment. I didn’t feel that the book had much depth and it was rather predictable. I got a bit bored at parts, but I thoroughly enjoyed the ending (which is why I wanted to read the sequel). I would recommend this to someone who wants a nice lighthearted book that will leave them smiling.

            However, I would not recommend RoN. Maybe it’s just me and my way of thinking, but I felt that this book was slow, predictable, a bit boring, and I was disappointed with the ending. There were definitely some funny parts and some really interesting parts, but in the end I just didn’t really like it very much.

As Finals Approach…

            Finals are one week away… and I’m listening to music and blogging? No, I’m not fortunate enough to not need to study, I’m just procrastinating. This semester has kind of burnt me out, I will blame my history class but that’s not really the whole problem. I keep comparing this year with last year, and I think that is a mistake. Freshman year is fun and new and everything is exciting… not to mention classes are, on average, easier. Sophomore year is still fun, but it’s lacking a little in excitement (for me at least, I’m sure plenty of people are out every weekend having drunken adventures). Also, when I started last year I expected classes to be a lot harder than they were. So this year I was expecting them to be about the same difficulty level as last year so I was caught off guard… because they’re not. I don’t know why I didn’t expect this. Of course sophomore year is going to be harder! Anyway, I’m just ready for the next two weeks to come and go. After a four-week winter break I’ll be ready for a new semester and a new year! And I’m really excited about that.

My Thoughts on Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1

!!!WARNING!!! This blog contains spoilers! Do not read unless you have seen the movie (not just read the book, because I will be discussing parts of the movie that were not in the book)!

            I saw Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 on Friday, and for the most part I really liked it, but there were a few things that really bothered me. And I was wondering if they bothered anyone else:

1) Harry and Hermione dance scene: I felt that it was a bit awkward and steered Harry and Hermione’s relationship in the wrong direction. I think I would have been fine with the seen if they hadn’t ended the dance so awkwardly and if Harry had clearly mentioned that he thought of Hermione as a sister. This is absolutely clear in the book. I just recently finished the 7th book, so it is very fresh in my mind and I did not notice any romantic tension between the two of them. Yes, it may be realistic for them to feel romantically towards each other, but it isn’t true to the book or the characters.

2) The naked make-out session with Harry and Hermione’s “spirits”: The depiction of Ron’s fear really just seemed inappropriate. I realize that the movie cannot be handled with kid gloves, and I realize it was only a vision, but I think it went too far. The characters should have been clothed or their bodies should have been less defined (more like a smoky blur perhaps). And again, Harry should have told Ron directly after it happened that he thinks of Hermione as a sister (as he does in the book). The awkward silence was not reassuring.

3) The lack of “bromance”: I really just wanted Harry and Ron to hug it out after the whole horcrux thing. They hugged in the book and I felt like the gesture meant more than any words ever could. Also one of my favorite lines in the book was when Ron says that he thought Dumbledore left him the Deluminator because he knew he would leave them, and Harry tells him no, that Dumbledore must have “know you’d always want to come back”. I just thought that was such a sweet moment that really highlighted their friendship and Harry’s ability to forgive.

4) The ending: I don’t have a problem with the ending, just the fact that it was chosen as the ending. It could not have left off on a more depressing point. How many movies have you seen that end with the hero mourning the loss of a friend and the villain getting exactly what he wants?!? Yes, it’s a movie in two parts, but it’s still a complete movie and should end as such. I would have liked to see it end with the trio figuring out what the Hallows were, with a bit of hope. I think that the capture and fiasco at Malfoy Manor would have been a good place to start the final movie. But I realize that there are time constraints and perhaps this is just the best place to end for time, but it should have ended with at least a glimmer of hope (like Harry proclaiming that he knows what he has to do next). Harry should have the last word, not a victory cry from Voldemort.

            So, that is my list of things that bothered me. It’s really not a long list, and I want to make it clear that I really did enjoy the movie. Other than the four things that I mentioned I thought it was very well done. Personally, I think that Daniel, Rupert, and Emma are three of the best young actors around and I love seeing them together. I think they all did an amazing job portraying their characters, and I think I will enjoy the film much more when I watch it for a second time. I’m super excited for the final movie; I think it is going to be epic and emotional and so much more. I think this movie set the stage really well for the next one, and I really can’t wait for July to come… although I also really don’t want the movies to end (because, no matter how much I complain, they are some of my favorite movies ever and they always will be).

Feeling Inferior

            I feel like I am constantly surrounded by people who are better that me. No matter where I go I feel inferior to those around me for one reason or another. I’m either too fat, or too stupid, or not talented enough, or too lazy, or not pretty enough, or too argumentative, or not bold enough, or too shy, or too clumsy, or too self-conscious, or too worried about all my inadequacies. Yes, it’s a long list, and those are only a portion of my insecurities. There is not really a point to this blog. Just felt like sharing with you.

Lost: A Poem

 

When I was four

I lost my pet caterpillar,

his name was kitty.

I lost my favorite jeans

the ones that fit just right

and my belt too.

Last month I managed

to lose my keys

and my cell phone

all in one night.

But none of that matters

when I look at what I lost

along the way

I lost my self

down the drain

smashed up in the garbage disposal

into the dirty sewers

she came out of a manhole

now she stands in my room

not at all the same

hair darkened by lack of sun

eyes reddened by tears held back

face smashed into a never changing grimace

body crumpled, tumbling in on itself

mind wandering

searching

for what has been lost

I never found

my caterpillar, my jeans,

my keys or my phone,

and I never found myself.

Learning to Balance

            I’ve never been able to juggle. I can’t walk the balance beam. I trip on my own shoes on a daily basis. It turns out that this inability to balance also translates into the rest of my life.

            College life has been crazier than ever and I’m finding myself wishing that there were thirty hours to a day. I haven’t even been able to watch the TV shoes that I always used to be able to make time for even when I was buried in homework. But my usual leisure activities like TV and YouTube have now been replaced by reading. I’m trying to finish the Harry Potter books before the seventh movie comes out in theaters. This wasn’t really the best time for me to get sucked into a seven part series (although I decided to only read books 1, 5, 6, and 7. I just started #7!).

            I’ve got a different test every week, mountains of homework, various clubs and activities, and a tiny sliver of a social life. My roommate is getting a bit annoyed by my habit of sitting in the same place for hours reading, and my homework is suffering as well. Plus I haven’t had any time at all for writing. Lucky for me I’m almost done with the books, and then I will be able to concentrate on schoolwork! Although, I don’t really want the books to end. But that is the subject for a different blog at a different time. I’ve got to go do my homework!