7 Excuses I’ll Make For Not Blogging

Hi there.

So… it’s been a while.

Here are some excuses I have for not blogging:

1) Grad school

2) Student teaching

3) Grading papers

4) Lesson planning

5) Stress

6) PACT

7) Grad school

But really, I’m not sure why it’s taken me so long to open up a word document and get typing. I often think about writing up my thoughts and posting them, but I don’t. I guess part of me thinks it’s a waste of time, and I don’t have time to waste (my YouTube history would argue otherwise). But it’s not a waste of time. Writing makes me happy. In times of stress it can be easy to push away the things that make you the happiest, even if you just end up mindlessly procrastinating.

I can’t guarantee that I’m going to start blogging regularly again (let’s be honest, it was never very regular). But in this very moment, I’m doing something that makes me happy. Maybe I’ll do it again soon.

200th Blog Post… How Did THAT Happen?!

I have been blogging for four years and four months. Holy cow.

I can’t help but think of how I’m different now than I was then.

In March of 2010 I was a freshman in college, now I’m in my second week of graduate school. A few weeks ago I would have told you that I was practically a different person than that shy girl in her dorm room. But now that I’ve thrust myself into an alarmingly similar situation, I’m finding that not all that much has changed.

Back in 2010 I struggled connecting with my roommate, now I’ve been living with a girl for two weeks and I don’t know anything about her other than her name… and that she calls her boyfriends A LOT.

In 2010 I hated eating in the cafeteria alone. Four years later, I still bring my food back to my apartment and eat alone in my room with the door closed.

The first two years of college felt really transformative. And now I can feel myself changing again. It’s a little unsettling. I thought I’d figured out who I was, and now I realize that I’ve got a lot more transforming to do.

Maybe that’s what life is about: constantly changing and redefining who we are – to ourselves and to the world. I guess that’s a good thing. But it’s scary.

In my education classes we’ve been talking a lot about learning. One approach to learning (an approach I really like) is that the learning process is about the struggle. If you are content and you have no problems or confusion, then you won’t learn. Basically, if you’re struggling then you’re learning something. So I must be learning A LOT.

I’m having a really tough time adjusting. I feel really isolated and I miss everyone. And sometimes I just feel like my brain is going to explode from all of the reading. But I know that I will come out of this stronger and smarter and, eventually, happier.

 

I want to sincerely thank anyone who has read my blog over the past four years. Even though I don’t post regularly, this blog has become a place where I can come to sort through my thoughts and share my ideas. In a way, learning to open myself up to strangers has helped me to be more open with the people in my life. I know that no one could ever gain as much from my blog as I have (and continue to), but I hope that you can take something from it.

Also: I’ve given my blog a little bit of a make-over! I’m still not sure about it; I really don’t like that I can’t put widgets on the side. But change is good! Let me know what you think!

Thanks for reading!!!!!!

Getting Excited About Writing Again

Maybe you’ve noticed (probably not) that I haven’t been posting very often for the past few months, especially since I graduated from college last month.

            So much of what I wrote was about school and being a student. I’ve been a student since I was five, and now suddenly I’m not anymore. And that’s a bit jarring. (There is an upcoming post about this… because I just wrote it. You can tell, I’m back to writing!! I will probably post it within the next few days.)

I haven’t felt inspired to write in a long time. I was trying to maintain my secondary blog (http://adviceforthealmostadult.blogspot.com/) because I put it on my resume and I wanted it to be an example of my writing skills. But I might just scrap it because I feel so guilty about not keeping up with it. Writing out of guilt does not work great for me.

But I’m excited to get back to writing about things that really matter to me. My favorite kind of writing is just rambling on about whatever is on my mind (I’m sure you can tell!). So, expect more of this!

But I also love writing fiction (hence the name of this blog, even though I don’t post fiction nearly as often as I should). So I am resuming work on my hopefully-one-day-novel.

My recent inspiration came from Twitter of all places! I saw the hashtag #JuNoWriMo – as in for NaNoWriMo, but in June! Check out the website here: http://junowrimo.com/

In case you don’t know, NaNoWriMo is basically an encouragement to write a 50,000 word novel in a month. It’s held in November, but as any college or high school student knows, there is NO time in November for novel writing. So I was super excited to for the opportunity to partake during a month that makes so much more sense for me. (Just FYI, JuNoWriMo doesn’t seem to be officially affiliated with NaNoWriMo – which is having their own event in July http://campnanowrimo.org ).

            I’m super excited to get back to blogging, and even more excited to finally finish a first draft of a real novel!! I’ll keep you posted on my progress throughout the month of June! If you’ve ever participated in NaNoWriMo or are participating in JuNoWriMo this month or Camp NaNoWriMo in July let me know! I’d love to hear about your struggles and triumphs!

Doing Homework at 3am… and Enjoying it?

It’s 3am and I still need to finish my homework. Why am I blogging?! It’s been a long time since I stayed up this late (because I have early classes this semester) and I forgot that I kind of like it.

I like that I’m the only noise in the apartment (although, my roommate surely does not like it. She would probably kill me if she knew how often my frantic typing in the middle of the night was blogging instead of homework.) I also like that it’s just me and my computer with no distractions (except the internet…). And for some crazy reason, I like that I’m on a deadline and I have to get this done before I go to bed. When I do my homework in the middle of the night I am so much more productive and I work so much quicker than when I actually do my work at a reasonable time.

It’s probably not good that I like any of this. And I will surely pay for it in the morning when my alarm clock goes off at 8am and I’ve only have 4 hours of sleep. But right now it’s just me and my keyboard. And I really like that.

Trying to Blog Better

So, this semester I’m taking a class on blogging (we will we cover a lot of other stuff too, but it’s mainly blogging) and I’m learning that there is a lot of stuff I’ve been doing wrong. My biggest mistake, which comes as no surprise to me, it that I don’t post regularly and I do not post consistent material. I’m really going to try to work on this in the months to come. I like my blog here and I like that I give myself free rein to write about whatever I want to write about, but I do need to post more often.

I also may be renaming some of my blog posts and reorganizing in general, because apparently you should name posts based on what people would be searching for. Shocker! Don’t know how I overlooked that one.

The bottom line is that I hope to make this a better blog for any lovely people who may choose to read it. Oh, and another thing I need to work on: building a community! So comment below (if you want to, I’m not going to force you!) and tell me some of your goals for the year or the semester (blogging goals or life goals or anything!)

Here is the link to the blog I’m creating for class: http://adviceforthealmostadult.blogspot.com (I know, it’s on Blogspot, I feel like a traitor. But in all honesty I like WordPress much better!) It focuses on practical and – hopefully – fun advice for college! Here is a quote from one of my posts:

         “Lesson #4: Don’t trust printers, any of them. As soon as you think you know a printer, it will turn on you. Waiting till the last-minute to print something important is risky business. Leave enough time to run to the library before class, or to beg the librarian for help if you’re already there.”

Commitment – Back to Blogging!

It’s just one of those things. The kind where the longer you do it or don’t do it, the harder it becomes to stop or start –respectively. You know, like eating that massive bag of chips, or not going to the gym, or doing drugs. But I am talking about blogging of course! Though, that is not to say that I haven’t been on a bit of a Halloween eating craze and avoiding the gym like the plague. Luckily however, I am not a drug addict. But I’ve been putting off blogging for months, with no reason whatsoever. I’ve even written blogs and not posted them! But the longer I go without posting, the harder it is to take that first step and open up my word document and change the font to Times New Roman (the default to “Calibri” font drives me nuts!). So here it is!

Sorry if this isn’t very entertaining. And double sorry for not posting in forever. I’m on the road to recovery. I guess I’m just one of those all or nothing kind of people. Like, I’ve written in a journal every single night for the past ten years (with only about a dozen exceptions) because I know that as soon as I say that I’m only going to write when exciting things happen that will be the end of my journaling days. I write every day, because I know it’s that or not at all. Unfortunately, I’m not willing to make that commitment to other aspects of my life. I should go to the gym every day, I should stop eating junk food, I should spend all of my free time reading instead of watching reality TV. But I’m not much of a commitment person.

Right now, as a college senior, I’m refusing to make a commitment about my future. My LSAT scores came in today, but I don’t want to commit to law school. I don’t want to commit to grad school at all, because that’s committing to a career path, and heaven forbid I ever make a decision on what I want to do with the rest of my life. I doubt I’ll ever be content in that respect. I’ll always wonder what else is out there, I’ll never be certain that I made the right choice. Hopefully, if I ever snag myself a decent man I will be able to at least commit to that!

But I have to admit that I don’t plan to commit to posting to this blog every day. I wish I would. But I don’t always do the things I know I should. But I’m going to finish this post, and I’m going to proofread it, and then I’m going to post it. Then I can get out of this rut and start posting more and more often. And just as it is harder to start after a long drought, it will also become easier the more often I post. At least life is forgiving in that way.

On Blogging and Pervy Professors

           I haven’t blogged in months. I haven’t even written anything outside of my daily journal in six weeks. And I really want to get back to it. So I thought I’d start off with a promise… or an attempt at a promise. I’m going to post a blog every day for the next two weeks. They will probably be shorter than some of my previous posts, but that’s probably better anyway. I’ve experienced so much in the past six months and my life has been more exciting than ever, but I haven’t actually sat down and written about much of it.

            Every time I want to write I think about all of the things I want to write and it just seems like it will take forever to get it all down, so I don’t write at all. My solution for this is to force myself to write a quick post every day. So you won’t get a three page saga of how awesome it was to visit the Coliseum in Rome or a lengthy description of the crazy person I made a pickle-only sandwich for at work last week.

And don’t worry, I won’t blog about blogging any more. I just thought I’d start off with something easy. Your reward for reading this: my favourite quote that I collected from my five months studying in England: (Warning: contains some dirty language)

 

The previous night there had been an English department party and one of my Professors – we’ll call her Jane – apparently got pretty drunk. One student was talking about it in class and my male Professor commented:

Student: “Jane told me that if we were in Prison I’d be her bitch and she’d f**k me in the shower.”

Professor: “If I were in prison with Jane I’d want to be her bitch.”

One Year of Blogging

            I started blogging March 27, 2010. One year ago from yesterday. Darn, I missed the one year mark by a day! This will be my 98th blog post (again, darn, 100 would have been a nice round number). Among those posts there are a few I probably shouldn’t have posted, a few that reveal things that I’m not proud of (my Facebook stalking habit, for instance), a few that reveal my innermost thoughts and dreams. At times I’ve been startled by my honesty; and honestly, I will never give out my blog info to anyone I know unless I delete a significant number of posts. Even so, I don’t regret a single post (well, not that I can think of at the moment).

            I know that everything I write isn’t great, or even decent, and I know that much of what I post may never be read or appreciated. But I am still exceedingly happy that I made a choice one year (plus one day) ago to put the creations of my hobby and my passion on the World Wide Web. Not only do I choose to spend more of my free time writing, but I’m also getting more used to sharing my work with actual living, breathing humans other than my mother. It can be scary to put yourself out there and say “This is what I love to do. I think I’m pretty good at it, what do you think?” It reminds me of a class I had last semester in which the teacher asked us to share something we are good at. For a few minutes we all just stared at each other trying to figure out what to say without sounding like we’re bragging. I was dreading my turn to share, and when it came I shyly said, “Well, I guess I’m good at writing”. This semester I’ve finally had the courage to share some of my work with a few of my fellow English major friends and my roommate (an environmental science major). I cannot say for certain that I would have had that courage if I hadn’t been anonymously posting to this blog for several months.

            Not to sound horribly cheesy, but I’m just a girl (ok, technically an adult in the eyes of the government) with a dream. I’ve been doing a great deal of research on how to become a writer. And the one piece of advice I have come across over and over again is to read and write A LOT. This blog has certainly helped me with writing more, and even with reading more. I have found so many amazing blogs with book reviews (I love reading blogs about books, it just one more secret hobby to put into my secret hobby box), fictional stories, and people simply blogging about their lives. My roommate and family cannot understand why I love reading what others’ write about their life. But there is so much that you can learn about a person from reading their blog. It doesn’t matter if a person is halfway across the world or within a few miles; everyone seems to have something interesting to say. So, along with everything else, learning about other people might be the greatest benefit I’ve received from blogging.

            I’m excited for another year of writing, reading, learning, sharing, and improving. Thank you to anyone who is reading this (admittedly not my most exciting blog post) and anyone who has ever read any of my posts.